Post by belle8448 on Nov 25, 2014 6:20:29 GMT
A cloaked figure steps into the spotlight of the dark smokey room. Her hood is lifted revealing nothing but crimson red lips in the spotlight. She takes the mic curling black gloved hands around the silver cylinder. Her lips pursed in an action of though, then she speaks, "Welcome.. This is my own personal poetry or what have you.. And will possibly turn into a place.. like.. a journal.. I suppose I'll just come here and ramble about how crummy my life is.. I know there's worse out there.. But this is my release.." She gazes around a moment, dark brown eyes scanning the so far bare room, then she continues, "Feel free to read, comment, praise, criticize.. Whatever you'd like.." her voice trails off softly she smiles mischievously. From the feet up, her figure slowly starts to disappear with thick red smoke, her lips left hanging for just a moment before she completely vanishes.
Dec. 22, 2008
I sit here.. I cry.. What's wrong with Me?
Is there something there I can't see?
All I did was love you, I gave you my heart, you tossed it aside..
You say you still love me, you still want me.. Then why am I only second best?
She's got your heart now, stolen your attention.. Everyday, you remind me of it..
But yet you play me, like a yo-yo on a string.. My heart means nothing to you, like a chew toy to a dog.. You know I'm faithful to you, and you use it..
Im in agony Im in pain.. I hear you I hear you, you damn well know I do.. But Me? My fault? I know its not true, but yet you get to me, push every button you may..
im crushed and Im falling.. I want to get over him but I can't.. it was to good to be true I should have known.. I try to find another, but I can't escape, they pretend to be into me then descard me away..
So what must I do.. I'll live through the hurt, the deciet and the pain.. I will go through it all.. Live yet another day..
Dec 23, 2008
I was there first.. It was me and you against the rest of the world.. You were perfect, and you were mine..
She came into the picture.. Just a friend.. I've talked to her, she talked about you all the time.. I should have taken a hint..
Soon everything was a problem, I did this, or I did that.. Nothing I ever did was good enough..
Then you yell at me.. You fuss and you cuss at me.. Im not even allowed to see my own friends, they make you jealous you say..
I saw it, the moment it went wrong, but I couldn't get over you.. I stuck with you through all the fights.. Through everything..
You told me it was over, you had found someone else.. Your little RPG whore.. She lives in a whole nother state.. You never met her in your life.. After talking to her for a week YOU LOVE HER?!?!?
I've known you for nine damn months and a week takes the place of that? I see how shallow you are.. How cruel you have become..
But still you remain in my heart.. Its terrible I know.. But I have no one to help me get over you.. Nothing and Noone..
Dec. 29, 2009
Must I drown my sorrow into empty liquor bottles?
Eat it down with every gallon ice cream I can find?
What's the point of either? I dont feel like I want to be here anymore..
Is this the life a must lead? In the darkness.. not a gentle sole to prove they all aren't the same..
They steal the very heart of me and devour it like a demon devours a soul.. Tearing it off.. piece by piece, shredding it with razor sharp teeth.. swallowing.. sending it into the black hole of a stomach..
As if the pain of seeing it, and feeling it wasn't enough, the black hole purges the very contents of my heart back out. The demon of a man, places it back in my hands, smearing it all over me..
I stare at my reddened hands, bits of my heart laying there.. Looking to my stained shirt and blood spattered face in the mirror.. What a dismal time this is..
My eyes wide, I stare as the demon behind me laughs with content.. My eyes well with tears.. He promised he would never hurt me.. but he did, such trickery and deciet.. How damn low of you..
So now I sit, in my dark corner, my very heart out of me, my half lifeless body, soiled in the red smoothie i once called a heart.. Its beyond repair now.. Never again will I trust..
MARCH 2 2008 5:14am
Where's my prince charming?
Where's the guy of my dreams?
Where's the love of my life?
Whose bride am I to be?
Is he a few hours away?
Is he in another country?
Is he in another state?
I just wish he would find me
Its never too late
Where's my happy ending?
Where's my fairytale prince?
Will it end in misery
Or will all be well?
Will we drive off into the sunset?
Will we kiss under the stars?
I wonder where he is
Maybe he's not too far
Just like in the movies
I'm looking for a fella'
Yes, You know me
I'm just your modern day
Cinderella
DECEMBER 14, 2007 7:33pm
Maybe I wear shorts and white socks with flip-flops,
maybe I don't like listening to rap
and I'm not highest on the social mountaintops,
maybe I don't care about the things
that make your worlds twirl,
maybe you look at me and think:
"Gee, what a wierd girl."
Maybe I like giving smiles
which seems to be a sin today,
and maybe I allow my imagination
to sometimes run away,
maybe you don't understand this
and that's why you cannot see,
if this make me a wierd girl,
hey, that's ok with me!
The world makes you believe
your personality shouldn't be detected,
your face must be picture perfect
and wear clothes like the 'best',just to be accepted.
But honey I look at you
and feel sorry that you're blind,
robots you have became,
yourself you'll never find.
At least I make it as something..
April 21, 2009
How To Show You Love Me - A Satire Piece
1. Yell at me.. Cuz I just love being cussed at and feeling like nothing..
2. Tell me its all my fault, and fuss about it til it almost seems believable..
3. Call me names and make fun of me.. I love feeling stupid..
4. Cuss me out because you saw me somewhere hugging on of my best friends.. Yea I�m sooo unfaithful..
5. Tell me you can cuss and much as you want and do what ever you want and I have no say in it..
6. Tell me you rather kill my parents just because something doesn�t go your way.. That really makes me think you care for me
7. Say you love me.. but put me through soooo many tests that make me cry and suffer.. I love those the most
8. Tell me I don�t care when you know I really do.. It makes me feel appreciated
9. Tell me I�m not trying hard enough to see you.. Though you very well know I�ve broken a lot of house rules not to mention school rules for you..
10. Best of all.. Get a girlfriend.. IN ANOTHER STATE.. in a week comeback to me saying you love her.. then tell me you love me.. I love being a yoyo
Sitting here staring at the clock on the wall..
Sitting wishing I could still get your call..
You belong to her and my heart aches still..
My heart still broken.. So sick and so ill..
My heart tells me I need to go on..
But I can't my motivation.. It's been long gone..
I really have to hope, I've thrown it all away..
No more love to give, not for anyone no way..
I think to myself.. What at all have I done?..
But everyone tells me.. He just wasn't the one..
I don't see why it couldn't be me..
I'm told I'm so great, that its truely plain to see..
But I doubt myself now..
Look at the clock, oh how time has run away..
The vicious cycle, it lives on another day..
But.. It's quite alright.. Cuz when you have nothing to hope for.. Or even to love..
Nothing phases you.. You don't care.. You just sit there unloved..
No.. I'LL just sit there.. unloved..
June 3, 2009
The Love Goddess
She gives her heart to the heartless.
She smiles upon those who know no happiness.
She reaches out to those who seemed so far left behind.
She warmest and kind to the bitter and cold.
She has love that is limitless.
She gets hurt and stands tall.
She has her feeling destroyed and keeps going on.
She pulls through the deepest of lows, with a smile on her face.
She is a warrior of love.
She is a beacon of faith.
She is a carrier of hope.
She gives all she has even when she is broken to nothing.
She is the Love Goddess. Loving everyone with everything she has.
The first four lines were given to me by a friend.. It seemed too short so i added some more ^^
July 12, 2009
she touches the mirror
what the reflection holds she doesn't recognize
she stares at the demon which dwells deep inside
she let her self go
she fell into the pit of despair
no way out for the good.. or wicked
she stands alone in the night
her eyes upon the stars
she wished for new hope.. or a better insight
she can't understand
why is the world like this
what more can she do.. or better yet
could have done?
her kindness now broken
her will since defeated
her courage is lost
her sweet words now forgotten
its the demon inside her
it now swallows her whole
she doesn't care anymore as it now takes control
...
July 13, 2009
without you, stars twinkle no more
without you, the sun no longer shines
without you, I have no will
without you, love is pointless
without you, there are always rainy days
without you, no one else exists
without you, I am noone
without you, I feel incomplete
but
WITHOUT YOU, I won't be hurt anymore
...
soo.. isn't life better..
Without you?
ALL OF MY OLD POEMS FROM RPGFO :
Dec. 22, 2008
I sit here.. I cry.. What's wrong with Me?
Is there something there I can't see?
All I did was love you, I gave you my heart, you tossed it aside..
You say you still love me, you still want me.. Then why am I only second best?
She's got your heart now, stolen your attention.. Everyday, you remind me of it..
But yet you play me, like a yo-yo on a string.. My heart means nothing to you, like a chew toy to a dog.. You know I'm faithful to you, and you use it..
Im in agony Im in pain.. I hear you I hear you, you damn well know I do.. But Me? My fault? I know its not true, but yet you get to me, push every button you may..
im crushed and Im falling.. I want to get over him but I can't.. it was to good to be true I should have known.. I try to find another, but I can't escape, they pretend to be into me then descard me away..
So what must I do.. I'll live through the hurt, the deciet and the pain.. I will go through it all.. Live yet another day..
Dec 23, 2008
I was there first.. It was me and you against the rest of the world.. You were perfect, and you were mine..
She came into the picture.. Just a friend.. I've talked to her, she talked about you all the time.. I should have taken a hint..
Soon everything was a problem, I did this, or I did that.. Nothing I ever did was good enough..
Then you yell at me.. You fuss and you cuss at me.. Im not even allowed to see my own friends, they make you jealous you say..
I saw it, the moment it went wrong, but I couldn't get over you.. I stuck with you through all the fights.. Through everything..
You told me it was over, you had found someone else.. Your little RPG whore.. She lives in a whole nother state.. You never met her in your life.. After talking to her for a week YOU LOVE HER?!?!?
I've known you for nine damn months and a week takes the place of that? I see how shallow you are.. How cruel you have become..
But still you remain in my heart.. Its terrible I know.. But I have no one to help me get over you.. Nothing and Noone..
Dec. 29, 2009
Must I drown my sorrow into empty liquor bottles?
Eat it down with every gallon ice cream I can find?
What's the point of either? I dont feel like I want to be here anymore..
Is this the life a must lead? In the darkness.. not a gentle sole to prove they all aren't the same..
They steal the very heart of me and devour it like a demon devours a soul.. Tearing it off.. piece by piece, shredding it with razor sharp teeth.. swallowing.. sending it into the black hole of a stomach..
As if the pain of seeing it, and feeling it wasn't enough, the black hole purges the very contents of my heart back out. The demon of a man, places it back in my hands, smearing it all over me..
I stare at my reddened hands, bits of my heart laying there.. Looking to my stained shirt and blood spattered face in the mirror.. What a dismal time this is..
My eyes wide, I stare as the demon behind me laughs with content.. My eyes well with tears.. He promised he would never hurt me.. but he did, such trickery and deciet.. How damn low of you..
So now I sit, in my dark corner, my very heart out of me, my half lifeless body, soiled in the red smoothie i once called a heart.. Its beyond repair now.. Never again will I trust..
MARCH 2 2008 5:14am
Where's my prince charming?
Where's the guy of my dreams?
Where's the love of my life?
Whose bride am I to be?
Is he a few hours away?
Is he in another country?
Is he in another state?
I just wish he would find me
Its never too late
Where's my happy ending?
Where's my fairytale prince?
Will it end in misery
Or will all be well?
Will we drive off into the sunset?
Will we kiss under the stars?
I wonder where he is
Maybe he's not too far
Just like in the movies
I'm looking for a fella'
Yes, You know me
I'm just your modern day
Cinderella
DECEMBER 14, 2007 7:33pm
Maybe I wear shorts and white socks with flip-flops,
maybe I don't like listening to rap
and I'm not highest on the social mountaintops,
maybe I don't care about the things
that make your worlds twirl,
maybe you look at me and think:
"Gee, what a wierd girl."
Maybe I like giving smiles
which seems to be a sin today,
and maybe I allow my imagination
to sometimes run away,
maybe you don't understand this
and that's why you cannot see,
if this make me a wierd girl,
hey, that's ok with me!
The world makes you believe
your personality shouldn't be detected,
your face must be picture perfect
and wear clothes like the 'best',just to be accepted.
But honey I look at you
and feel sorry that you're blind,
robots you have became,
yourself you'll never find.
At least I make it as something..
April 21, 2009
How To Show You Love Me - A Satire Piece
1. Yell at me.. Cuz I just love being cussed at and feeling like nothing..
2. Tell me its all my fault, and fuss about it til it almost seems believable..
3. Call me names and make fun of me.. I love feeling stupid..
4. Cuss me out because you saw me somewhere hugging on of my best friends.. Yea I�m sooo unfaithful..
5. Tell me you can cuss and much as you want and do what ever you want and I have no say in it..
6. Tell me you rather kill my parents just because something doesn�t go your way.. That really makes me think you care for me
7. Say you love me.. but put me through soooo many tests that make me cry and suffer.. I love those the most
8. Tell me I don�t care when you know I really do.. It makes me feel appreciated
9. Tell me I�m not trying hard enough to see you.. Though you very well know I�ve broken a lot of house rules not to mention school rules for you..
10. Best of all.. Get a girlfriend.. IN ANOTHER STATE.. in a week comeback to me saying you love her.. then tell me you love me.. I love being a yoyo
Sitting here staring at the clock on the wall..
Sitting wishing I could still get your call..
You belong to her and my heart aches still..
My heart still broken.. So sick and so ill..
My heart tells me I need to go on..
But I can't my motivation.. It's been long gone..
I really have to hope, I've thrown it all away..
No more love to give, not for anyone no way..
I think to myself.. What at all have I done?..
But everyone tells me.. He just wasn't the one..
I don't see why it couldn't be me..
I'm told I'm so great, that its truely plain to see..
But I doubt myself now..
Look at the clock, oh how time has run away..
The vicious cycle, it lives on another day..
But.. It's quite alright.. Cuz when you have nothing to hope for.. Or even to love..
Nothing phases you.. You don't care.. You just sit there unloved..
No.. I'LL just sit there.. unloved..
June 3, 2009
The Love Goddess
She gives her heart to the heartless.
She smiles upon those who know no happiness.
She reaches out to those who seemed so far left behind.
She warmest and kind to the bitter and cold.
She has love that is limitless.
She gets hurt and stands tall.
She has her feeling destroyed and keeps going on.
She pulls through the deepest of lows, with a smile on her face.
She is a warrior of love.
She is a beacon of faith.
She is a carrier of hope.
She gives all she has even when she is broken to nothing.
She is the Love Goddess. Loving everyone with everything she has.
The first four lines were given to me by a friend.. It seemed too short so i added some more ^^
July 12, 2009
she touches the mirror
what the reflection holds she doesn't recognize
she stares at the demon which dwells deep inside
she let her self go
she fell into the pit of despair
no way out for the good.. or wicked
she stands alone in the night
her eyes upon the stars
she wished for new hope.. or a better insight
she can't understand
why is the world like this
what more can she do.. or better yet
could have done?
her kindness now broken
her will since defeated
her courage is lost
her sweet words now forgotten
its the demon inside her
it now swallows her whole
she doesn't care anymore as it now takes control
...
July 13, 2009
without you, stars twinkle no more
without you, the sun no longer shines
without you, I have no will
without you, love is pointless
without you, there are always rainy days
without you, no one else exists
without you, I am noone
without you, I feel incomplete
but
WITHOUT YOU, I won't be hurt anymore
...
soo.. isn't life better..
Without you?